This title is supposed to be "Wild {Abandon}"
But I don't think I can use that - because I don't think there is anything wild about me. And {abandon}ment especially wild {abandon}ment is not easy for me. I wish I was more free to express myself with wild {abandon}. I'm not sure exactly when control became so part of my dna or character. Maybe I will never have the answers. Every now and again - my girls help me loose my inhibitions and {abandon} my control to be free... free to dance, free to sing with them, free to be a goof ball and to laugh a lot, especial at myself.
I find each time I do - it loosens something inside of me. Deep inside. And the best part of it - is what it releases in them. Sometimes to me that's the most beautiful gift of all. I'm hoping as a learn to trust the {abandonment} and what comes out of it, that a greater level of {abandonment} will come through my creativity and my art... As I learn to let go... of the control, the perfectionism and learn to let go of the fear!
To rest in the knowledge that there is a deeper beauty in the freedom of {abandonment}and there is a deeper beauty in the outcome too!
Mystery is at the heart of creativity. That, and surprise! - Julia Cameron
Perfectionism isn't a quest for the best.
It is a pursuit for the worst in ourselves,
the part that tells us that nothing we will ever do will be good enough."
- Julia Cameron
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